Welcome to my blog. I write about everything here - successes, failures and stumbles in healing my heart, my home, my health and a sailboat.
All tagged heartache
After years of protecting myself and then opening up again and again, I’ve closed up, built layers of walls around my heart. Hope is hanging out on the other side. I’m not entirely sure I’ll let it back in.
I’ve learned a lot about myself. For instance, when I get hurt - even just my feelings - I shut down. Well, first, I might lash out in hurtful words, and then I shut down, close up, protect myself. Lately, I wonder if I’m going to be capable of opening up if the right person comes along.
Writing a little more poetry
He is the one who encouraged me to write about my stepdad, and then to take it further and publish nationally. I’m so glad of that. I’m so glad I did that. And eventually, I will file charges, something I had planned to do when I visited Tony in December, but that trip, like the next two, got canceled.
I looked around and all I saw were families and couples showing each other love. Michelle hugged me. Niece Amanda, and momma to Max and Luke, squeezed me tight. My nephew Josh handed me his son as tears streamed down my face.
